Thanksgiving Reprieve
“I’m sorry you missed your party”
Sis, I’d rather see you healthy
Was never in my power
Is this the final chapter?
That you even thought of others
In this context you still considered
When you struggle just to breathe
We both can't believe…
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It’s not what I publish
But fam moments to cherish
Yet it only seems clear
As mortals when we near
The end of the journey
How foolish I am?
Are my goals all a sham?
To be spending so much life
So consumed by the fight
Yet for the good I have done
May I cash in my karma?
Procure that magic pharma
This glorified MD
Can’t heal what’s before me
So God please reshuffle
Your Message, it’s not subtle
These cards you have dealt
I know fulfillment’s not wealth
Yet…
I’m still in denial
That I really can’t save you
Like fortune spent wrongly
It will leave me so lonely
On this day to give thanks
There just isn’t a bank
To buy you more time
In what should be our prime
And so we reminisce
Youthful memories seem bliss
Didn’t think it’d be me
To carry the family tree
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“But we’re not giving up!”
Of course not, without a doubt
Though I’ve seen your chest CT
Tumors compress your SVC
You tell me
Don’t worry, I’ll be okay
We’ll take it day by day
You see the tears in my eyes
Surely this can’t be good-bye
In this battle against cancer
Every day I give that answer
But when it gets really personal
What precision medicine arsenal?
That I failed to create?
Too little, too late
When cancer hits home
Who cares about the genome
This October Thanksgiving
Should celebrate just livin’
We should wine, we should dine
If only God would give more time
And just so you know
I’ve given my best as big bro
You’re my only baby sis
When fate happens - forever you’ll be missed
Can’t believe you are gone. Will always remember your laugh
Rest in peace my dear friend. You will always be in my heart.
Spending time with you was the best part of my childhood. Would always look forward to going over to your place for sleepovers, playing Barbie, going to Beckers, talking abt 90210 and just doing silly things. I’ll never forget the time we drank way too many Clearly Canadians and laughed uncontrollably for the longest time. I miss you and will always cherish these memories.
You are a curious and loving soul,
Determined with a goal,
You are authentic,
One of very few,
We miss you.